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it's a baby phoenix!
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this is really friggin cool. i want it.
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lol this is still here. apparently they will NEVER DELETE THIS! SO HAHAHAHAHHAHA!!!!!! I have nothing to say really..i have a live journal now. Thats giong well for me. WE're getting along pretty well now. go here ;ivejournal.com/users/frail_rose
- posted by Rachel at 7:34 PM

I think that the problem is that the media is attempting to make money off of our unhappiness. I and many of my friends have web logs(blogs) and web journals. I've been reading the a lot and the one thing I notice is a lot of us are unhappy. Tired of being fed false happiness, unhappy with the way the world is going to hell in a hand basket, sick of everyone and everyhing being the same. The problem is that the media tells everyone "Buy this, it will make you happy" so everyone goes and buys it and no ones happy. We're being lied to daily by those we're supposed to trust.
The fact that they're trying(and succeeding)to sell rebellion. For example, in stores like Hot Topic, you have all your goth esque clothing. Many people but them but how many people actually feel that way about life? How many people are actually 'goth' or 'punk' or 'prep'? It's now "cool" to be goth and to "rebell" against society. But how many people are actually activists? How may people out there are actually rebelling? Back in the 70's to rebell meant to be a flower child and go to rallies and protest against what they thought was wrong. How many people out there actually bother doing anything about what they think is wrong with society?
Few people are ture to themselves anymore because they're scared that if they go their own way no one will like them. No one is origional anymore. And then everyone looks at those who buy their stuff at the thrift stores and think "Woah, thats the cool thing to do so I'll do that too" What happened to originality?
then there's always the ever-dying thing we call morals...What happened to those? Few people actually know what morals are anymore. Everyone feels the need to go out and have sex with everyone they meet. what happened to feeling pride in keeping your virginity? And no, it's not "the teens fault for not seeing what is right and what is wrong" It's the people who speak to us, it's the media, it's all those out there who shove it down our throat "SAFE SEX" instead of "NO SEX" it's those who are screaming "DONT DRINK AND DRIVE" instead of "DONT DRINK" it's those who like to say "GO TO YOUR ROOM AND WATCH TV" instead of "What can I do for you to help make things better?" They want us to think that they're there to help us, but are they? No, they're not. The media cares shit about you or your life. You say "I have no friends " they say "Ok, buy this all black outfit, paint your nails black, call yourself a goth and make some 'goth' friends". You say "I'm uncomfortable with my wieght" they say "Ok, buy these pills, become addicted and you'll look just like Christina Augulera"
We all sit here at our computers blogging about how much soceity sucks and cry because we're scared, we don't know what to do and we're tired of life being the way it is and rather than them actually listening to what we have to say, or finding whats wrong they buy us things and put us on random meds for some random 'comdition' that doesn't even exist.
Like how about those annoying little kids who parents can't control? They throw them on meds and ritalin and then treat them like they're retards when all they actually need is to have their asses kicked once in a while. Or the teens they put on paxil and zoloft. How about actually taking the time to listen to whats wrong before you throw someone on drugs. On the Zoloft commercial hey say "while the cause for depression is still unknown..." WTF? So basically....We have no idea what the hell is wrong with you, but take this shit we threw together in out lab yesterday and you might feel better...that is if it doesn't cause heart disease or liver disease or colon cancer or mouth cancer...or brain cancer or all of those things...but hey, at least while you're dying of some unknown disease you'll be happy!
This isn't me trying to blame the probles of teens on the adults of the world but this is me saying it's not all our fault. How can we be expexted to make "the right decisions" when all we're hearing is "if it doesn't work buy a new one". "if everyone in the world doesn't like your personality go out and get a new one". "if you don't looke just like the guy next to you, hurry up and buy the same outfit as him" rather then helping us they're throwing money at us and saying "go buy something" And while money is nice to have it's not going to make you happy.
I met a man without a dollar to his name
Who had no traits of any value but his smile
I met a man who had no yearn or claim to fame
Who was content to let life pass him for a while
And I was sure that all I ever wanted
Was a life like the movie stars led
And he kissed me right here, and he said,

"I'll give you stars and the moon and a soul to guide you
And a promise I'll never go
I'll give you hope to bring out all the life inside you
And the strength that will help you grow.
I'll give you truth and a future that's twenty times better
Than any Hollywood plot."
And I thought, "You know, I'd rather have a yacht."

I met a man who lived his life out on the road
Who left a wife and kids in Portland on a whim
I met a man whose fire and passion always showed
Who asked if I could spare a week to ride with him
But I was sure that all I ever wanted
Was a life that was scripted and planned
And he said, "But you don't understand —

"I'll give you stars and the moon and the open highway
And a river beneath your feet
I'll give you day full of dreams if you travel my way
And a summer you can't repeat.
I'll give you nights full of passion and days of adventure,
No strings, just warm summer rain."
And I thought, "You know, I'd rather have champagne."

I met a man who had a fortune in the bank
Who had retired at age thirty, set for life.
I met a man and didn't know which stars to thank,
And then he asked one day if I would be his wife.
And I looked up, and all I could think of
Was the life I had dreamt I would live
And I said to him, "What will you give?"

"I'll give you cars and a townhouse in Turtle Bay
And a fur and a diamond ring
And we'll be married in Spain on my yacht today
And we'll honeymoon in Beijing.
And you'll meet stars at the parties I throw at my villas
In Nice and Paris in June."

And I thought, "Okay."
And I took a breath
And I got my yacht
And the years went by
And it never changed
And it never grew
And I never dreamed
And I woke one day
And I looked around
And I thought, "My God...
I'll never have the moon."
- posted by Rachel at 8:53 PM

So I haven't updated in a while...been on live journal....
liverjournal.com/users/frail_rose
livejournal.com/users/no_its_just_me

I've also noticed that no one's been commnting....wtf guys?

nothings really up with me.I'm unhappy as usual so I guess thats it. If you guys want me to keep this thing up lemme know cause i'm thinkin about deleting it.
- posted by Rachel at 7:25 PM